Hello, world! I’m not usually one for blogs but as it’s supposed to be therapeutic and a good way to vent whatever feelings you have in the moment, I thought I’d give it a shot. Those negative feelings of depression and loneliness that can tear up the soul sometimes consume me and this is the place where I’ll pour them all out. But I also experience some amount of joy and content in my circumstances and they will be related here too. 

Anyways, I suppose I should describe myself and my situation a little. I’m 19 years old, currently in university, and I’ve never had a boyfriend. It’s not all that surprising to me, but it apparently is to some folks who don’t know me well enough to know anything about my personal life. A couple of them even seemed astounded at the fact that I’ve never really dated. I have my theories as to why few guys have ever approached me, but nothing really solid and concrete other than the thought which likes to push its way into my mind every so often; the common “there must be something wrong with me” phrase. It could be the fact that I’m just so shy and introverted and, therefore, I come off as unfriendly, stuck up, aloof, cold, etc. to any person I happen to be meeting. This “unapproachable” vibe just keeps guys a good distance away from me and it puts the general public (aka. co-workers, classmates) off unless they actually take a chance to get to know me. But, then again, it’s best if I become more aware of my body language and the way I act and speak and change it so I appear more friendly and enthusiastic, which hopefully, would garner more people to come my way while I also approach them first more as well. But that could be a whole entry on its own. Maybe I’m just not all that attractive; but I consider myself to be average-looking at the very least, and while I lean away from thinness, plenty of women much bigger than me seem to have no problems finding men. Maybe I have a boring personality; while I am a naturally serious person, I do have a sense of humour and can be lighthearted when the occasion calls for it. Maybe, maybe, maybe. There are so many maybe’s that I’ve lost count! Perhaps it all boils down to the fact that I’m not exactly confident and comfortable in my own skin and people just sense it easily and that’s the reason guys have never seemed to like me. I guess I’d better at least act like I’m happy and together more and work on my social awkwardness so people won’t see right through me. *Ok well, this wasn’t a little description, but I tend to write too much in general. ^.^

But I digress. Whatever happens in my day-to-day existence that relates to my singledom on some level will end up being posted here. It’s meant for me to vent my feelings and be therapeutic so hopefully that works out well. I’ll see if I can find interesting articles, blogs, stories, people seeking advice, or what-have-you to put up in this space as this issue doesn’t seem to be much written about beyond people on answer websites or message boards listing the exact same theories I mentioned above as to why they don’t have a boyfriend. I hope I won’t bore you with my posts, so enjoy and take comfort in the fact that, if you’re one who’s never had a boyfriend (or girlfriend if you’re a guy or a lesbian) that you’re not alone! Or if you’re just any reader who happens to stumble upon my blog, don’t mind my run-on sentences, lol!