So, where has life taken me in the last month or so since I’ve updated?

I now have a job as a clerk/cashier at a convenience store part-time and so far it’s been going really well. The job is more low key than ones I’ve had in the past and I get to work on my own too which is nice. The pace suits me well and while there are some tedious tasks to do before closing, it otherwise isn’t a bad job to have for the summer. I just wish I had more hours but my manager specifically only wanted someone for part-time. I was going to start a camp counseling job in July, doing arts and crafts with children, but unfortunately that isn’t happening anymore. The program got cancelled due to low registration from kids. I guess the company that runs the camp isn’t doing well this year as I found out they cancelled a tutoring program as well for the same reason. I am disappointed that this happened as it would’ve been great teaching-related experience, but there isn’t much I can do. I will, however, try to find some volunteer opportunities with children, that will fill up my spare time this summer when I’m not working and should be lots of fun too!

In other news, I finally met the guy I’ve been talking to on the internet for the past months! He is everything I hoped he would be – nice, caring, honest, goofy sense of humour, sharing similar interests and values. He has an interesting look to him too which really makes him stand out, but in a good way. His hair is actually multi-coloured naturally! It’s brown, blonde, and red all in one! I don’t know how that happens, but it looks really neat. He has an awkward smile with big teeth, but as they say, nobody’s perfect. Plus, I think I find his smile endearing. We met at the park where there’s a lake near my house and just biked and walked around there and the surrounding suburban area, talking about life and other things. Then we went back to my house and ate strawberries with chocolate. Can you say yum?? Our conversation was always good, and if it lulled, the silence was never awkward or strange. He is introverted, much like I am, and I think that could allow us to fit well together should we end up dating. We really are just friends or at least in the “hanging out” stage, though mentions of dates and romantic interest have sparked up in our conversations before. I think it’s better to be friends first, to take things slow and see where they go, to decide if we really like each other in “that way” or not. I think I may like him romantically, it definitely sparked for me when I met than when I had just been talking to him on MSN. As for him, it’s hard to say. I get the feeling he may, but at the same time, I’m not sure and maybe he’s not really sure of his feelings for me. I guess only time spent together in person will eventually reveal what lies in his heart. I’m at a loss as to how these things are supposed to go, my inexperience with guys isn’t helping here, but I know I will find my way. He hasn’t really dated much either so maybe he’s just as nervous and unsure as I am. All I can say is, we`ll see what happens and hopefully something of a romantic nature does develop between us. To note though, nothing physical happened either.

I did once mention Shy Guy, the one my friend “set“ me up with. I never did go on a date with him. I just didn`t feel a desire to and while he was nice and cute in his own way, I just didn`t feel interested in him particularly. To my knowledge, he has now found himself a lesbian girl to crush on and this girl is toying with him apparently as well.

What I do need to do ultimately though, is find myself a hobby to engage in over the summer. It will keep boredom from seeping into my soul. I have plenty of solitary, rather passive interests like reading and writing and surfing the internet, but I need something active, something maybe I can do with other people. I do exercise, but again it`s something I do alone. I do a lot of things on my own. Most of my time is spent well, with myself. Maybe I could take a class, try out meetup.com, anything where I`d be around other people. I need to put myself out there more, make connections with others, make new friends. It definitely helps with the whole job networking thing, something which I don`t really do and am not very good at. School is over and I need to keep myself busy and occupied and be around people sometimes so I don`t develop cabin fever from staying in my house too long!

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